frowns
emily seriously why did you come back to the dorm
you’re mostly just fucking up my sleep schedule
if you were going to slack off on this assignment you should have gone back to the library instead of knowingly keeping me up
this isn’t fair or nice really
i don’t care if you probably think doing the actual assignment is the more unfortunate thing
Take the test over here.
It’s incredibly accurate.
At this time in your life you feel like ‘giving up’. For every time you have tried to build up your hopes and dreams something has come along to burst the balloon. You may feel that, at this particular moment in your life, there seems to be no chance of fulfilling these dreams but you are so wrong. You are the sort of person that can influence any situation, that is - If you don’t give up. So consciously make the effort… You have that inherent power to succeed.
Being impulsive and irritable, your desires and needs are paramount. You do things with insufficient thought - with little regard to the consequences that may follow. As a consequence of this attitude, you may be experiencing stress and conflict.
You feel that you should be appreciated far more than you are but no-one seems to care! You feel that you are receiving less than your share and the main problem is that there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. The inner stress that you are experiencing makes you quick to take offence but you realise that at this particular moment in time there is little that you can do to relieve the situation.
It would seem that an existing situation or relationship is unsatisfactory and you feel that there is little that you can do about it without ‘some help from your friends’, but you have no desire to show the world how vulnerable you really are and therefore you consider it inadvisable to display affection or be over demonstrative. You regard this particular relationship as a depressing tie and although you would like to be independent and unhampered, you don’t want to run the risk of losing anything. All this leads you to react ‘touchily’ and with impatience, while the urge to ‘get away from it all’ results in considerable restlessness and stress. Your ability to concentrate may suffer.
You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in ‘dreaming’ but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realise those dreams and to turn them into reality.
when you feel bad for wanting to spend time with someone because it means that they aren’t spending time with their friends
even though that’s the only way you get to see them
and they want to spend time with you, but they just don’t… prioritize you, because you’re on the computer
but that’s the only way you can see each other
i’m a crying mess and it’s so stupid
i think this is the first time someone’s called me ugly on the internet
hurts more than i anticipated
i know i’m not really all that pretty, especially since i’ve gained some weight, but wow, people? really?
commenting on the dumb color-filtered stop motion gif with “ugly bitch deserved it” ?
i don’t want to be upset at it,
but i think the longer i dwell on it, the more likely i am to be sad
so i’m writing this and then going to move onto doing something more fun
so i fooled around in the shower and basically couldn’t move from the floor for ten minutes, afterward
it was super comfortable
i probably could’ve fallen asleep
boy harasses masses for tmi tuesday asks
sends ask about masturbation habits
HOW’S THAT FOR TMI, SON
why are all of the jerks in my life also cowards
when i finally want to stand up for myself, they back off and won’t give me the satisfaction
ugh whatever, i want to do something fun and just erase these people from my memory
don’t be offended if someone calls you by a name, which wasn’t your real or gender-indicating name to begin with, that you don’t go by anymore
if your real name is manohari, you were born/assigned female and went by evy, and someone doesn’t notice that you’ve started identifying as genderqueer to the point of wanting a new name (“suju” ?? what)… don’t get upset at them?
if all of your names are nicknames, don’t respond with “you should read my about page because that’s not my name” sort of bullshit
i can respect a person’s sexuality and still call them an old nickname. “suju” doesn’t strike me as more masculine than “evy” anyway.
whatever.
roommate has decided that making us stop watching supernatural is a good idea while she re-finishes twilight princess
and i suppose it’ll be this way through skyward sword, too
i really enjoy zelda, but it isn’t a two player game, and having two people play through the same game in the same room gets old very fast if there is only one television and turns must be taken
posting this to side-blog because nobody will see this
when you’ve realized that you’re avoiding your friends permanently
are they really friends anymore
(no they are not)